going to

i sat down today
i was going to write
i was going to post
i was going to going to going to

what's holding me back
what's keeping me stuck

"i'm holding me back"
"i'm keeping me stuck"
they say they say they say

going to going to going to

voices that matter
and voices that don't

pitty parties and lack
selfish and one-sided
short-sited

avoiding discomfort
sitting with discomfort

words on a page
giving meaning to who i am

meaning meeting misunderstanding
twisting and turning

freedom within imperfection
freedom without others perceptions

"confusion can be a sign of abuse"
"sitting with confusion can bring freedom"

experiencing freedom in living life
seems to be a series of finding
the peace, love, and safety
in allowing contradicting contradictions
and trusting in one’s ability to make it out the other side;

an embodiment of:
”i’ll cross that bridge when i get to it”